"Edited to Add"....

This started as a pregnancy blog when I fell pregnant in May 2009 after four years of finding a donor, doing all the counselling / paperwork / tests and trying.

And now, thanks to a 4WD which skidded onto our side of the road, killing our baby daughter at 34w and injuring me, my partner and two of my stepdaughters on 27 December 2009, it has turned into something else. We didn't want this something else, but apparently it is all we've got to go on with.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Seven


Seven little soap-bubbly cells is what we saw yesterday morning on the microscope screen when we went for our transfer. It was more uncomfortable than last time - I could feel the catheter poking about as our doctor found the right spot / angle, but he was lovely and gave me and El Prima a genuine good-luck shoulder squeeze before we left.

I'm doing my best to stay with each new moment - and my delight in my favourite number turning up in such an unexpected way - without veering off into good luck omens and what if they don't work, and worries about all the multiple possible futures held within those tiny gelatinous cell walls. We're giving this one every good chance.

Meanwhile, I'm blowing soap bubbles for Z, and Albie, and Esther, and Charlotte and Hudson, and all the other beautiful babies we are missing.
Posted by Hanen at 9:10 PM
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17 comments:

  1. MerryMay 16, 2011 at 1:22 AM

    Everything crossed :)

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  2. Hope's MamaMay 16, 2011 at 2:05 AM

    Yep, fingers and toes crossed here as well.
    xo

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  3. dotalotMay 16, 2011 at 3:00 AM

    7 is my lucky number too hanen, everything crossed for you all xxx anne

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  4. NMay 16, 2011 at 5:40 AM

    I love the number 7, it's a great number. Cheering on you guys and those 7 little cells. <3

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  5. HanenMay 16, 2011 at 5:51 AM

    Thanks lovelies! xxx h

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  6. PomegranateMay 16, 2011 at 6:57 AM

    fingers and toes all crossed for you and lucky #7!

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  7. carMay 16, 2011 at 6:59 AM

    All the best for those 7 little cells to become roughly 7 lbs of beautiful living take home baby.

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  8. St ElsewhereMay 16, 2011 at 7:12 AM

    Just stopped by....

    I read your last couple of posts...I hope you have caught a breather from the break you took.

    I am terribly sorry for the little girl who lost her life at 4 days of agre. Reminds me afresh of what I lost.

    7 is a wonderful number and I hope its your lucky number too.

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  9. CJMay 16, 2011 at 9:59 AM

    I hope this is your cycle!! Crossing my fingers!!!

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  10. sarahMay 16, 2011 at 10:02 AM

    FIngers and toes and all the paws in our home are crossed for you and your family, Hanen. xoxo

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  11. Mama1Mama2May 16, 2011 at 1:32 PM

    Good luck!! I hope this is the lucky cycle for you!

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  12. BrookeMay 16, 2011 at 2:22 PM

    Thanks for your lovely comments on my blog. I so hope this cycle is the one with a happy ending for you.

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  13. AnonymousMay 16, 2011 at 6:30 PM

    Best of luck to you and your beautiful 7 cells! :-)

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  14. Ya ChunMay 16, 2011 at 7:16 PM

    fingers crossed that those cells become a gazillion!

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  15. SuzyMay 17, 2011 at 8:57 PM

    7 is my Lou's number too. I hope it brings you luck xxxxxxxxxxx

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  16. jillMay 18, 2011 at 12:20 PM

    So much hope flooding your way!!

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  17. Catherine WMay 22, 2011 at 1:31 PM

    Fingers and toes crossed for you and lots of hopes and wishes xo

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