"Edited to Add"....

This started as a pregnancy blog when I fell pregnant in May 2009 after four years of finding a donor, doing all the counselling / paperwork / tests and trying.

And now, thanks to a 4WD which skidded onto our side of the road, killing our baby daughter at 34w and injuring me, my partner and two of my stepdaughters on 27 December 2009, it has turned into something else. We didn't want this something else, but apparently it is all we've got to go on with.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Is okay

Thank you so much for your love and concern.

Sorry to be so morose! Getting out of town and seeing a beloved old friend get married helped.

I really don't want to go onto antidepressants to get through this. I don't think there is really any dodging this sadness, I just hope that if I can look it in the eye and stare it down, it might gradually retreat to a safer distance.


  1. It sounds like you're doing all the right things. It's just the time you have to wait for, unfortunately. Don't apologize. No one would be reading if we didn't care, and any feelings you have are completely normal, I'm sure. Don't know you, but I'm sending virtual hugs anyway. :)

  2. I'm glad to hear the wedding was a good idea. Don't get down on yourself for whatever lengths you have to go to to feel better. You deserve to do whatever it takes to feel well.

  3. I went through a lot of early losses but nothing that was nearly as traumatic as yours. I did end up going on antidepressants for a short while and it made a world of difference for me.

    I'm not saying they cure everything but don't be afraid to take them if that is what you need.

  4. xxxx thanks so much. It all helps.

  5. Sending you love, and hugs, and strength!