"Edited to Add"....

This started as a pregnancy blog when I fell pregnant in May 2009 after four years of finding a donor, doing all the counselling / paperwork / tests and trying.

And now, thanks to a 4WD which skidded onto our side of the road, killing our baby daughter at 34w and injuring me, my partner and two of my stepdaughters on 27 December 2009, it has turned into something else. We didn't want this something else, but apparently it is all we've got to go on with.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

A Breather

I've finally made it to the 2 week non-teaching break, thank god! I had gone into week 9 hanging-in there by my fingernails mode, being just too busy to think, and for the first time in this job (2.5 years) feeling really unmotivated. I guess it had to happen sooner or later, and I think it is more a factor of so much stuff (work, personal, gestating, etc) going on at the same time, rather than about my job per se.

So it is really good to get a breather - not exactly a break, because I still had my business law teaching yesterday, and I'm on deadline for finishing an article which is being submitted to an edited book - plus trying to write a marking guide and start thinking about marking 40 student papers... but at least I'm not teaching at the main campus for two weeks.

And last night I cooked my first proper dinner in what feels like weeks (not counting quick dinners like pasta etc) - salmon with soba noodles. so good!

In Halloumi related news - I had a total stranger suggest on Sunday "When the baby comes - which can't be long now...." I was a bit agog at that - didn't realise I looked so huge! But apparently my mum was big pretty early on with her pregnancies too - I guess my body is just giving Haloumi an olympic sized swimming pool to play around in, and Haloumi will gradually grow into it. I also got a copy of the report from our 19week ultrasound, and apparently Halloumi was measuring at about 20 weeks 2 days - so only slightly above average size for dates.

I'm getting lots of recognisable kicks now - it happened the other day on the train, and I just sat there grinning to myself - such an amazing feeling. And Halloumi seems to get particularly active in the evenings - and has been known to kick El Prima in the back.

My uterus, as seen from Halloumi's point of view

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