"Edited to Add"....

This started as a pregnancy blog when I fell pregnant in May 2009 after four years of finding a donor, doing all the counselling / paperwork / tests and trying.

And now, thanks to a 4WD which skidded onto our side of the road, killing our baby daughter at 34w and injuring me, my partner and two of my stepdaughters on 27 December 2009, it has turned into something else. We didn't want this something else, but apparently it is all we've got to go on with.

Friday, January 1, 2010


55 comments:

  1. Oh my god I am so sorry I hope you are holding each other through your pain.

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  2. I have no words as I sit here in tears over your loss. Thinking of you, your family and your precious little one.

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  3. I've never commented on your blog before, though I have been reading. I am so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your family and mourning the loss of little Haloumi along with you.

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  4. I am so sorry for this tragedy that has happened to your family. I came here through Schroedingers Womb. Haloumi sounds like such a precious happy little baby. I'm so sorry she came to you only to leave you. I'm holding you all in my heart.

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  5. Oh gosh! I'm so sorry to see this.

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  6. I'm so so terribly sorry for your loss. May peace and comfort be with your family.

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  7. Oh no, this just takes my breath away and makes me cry. I have no idea what kind of accident you were in or what happened, but I have no words to express how sorry I am for you both and your little Haloumi.
    My thoughts and prayers go out to you both.

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  8. Sending love and condolences to all of you. I am so so sorry, and will be thinking about you.

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  9. hugs and shared tears with you all xxxxxxx

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  10. I am so sorry. Much love and sympathy from California.

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  11. The Baybeasts pointed me here...I am sorry that this is my intro to your family and am devastated for you. Such horror. I wish you much love and healing in the next weeks and months. I'll be thinking of you.

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  12. PS. I'm in Melbourne too - please let me know if there's any way I can be useful to you.

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  13. i have not the words to express my sadness for you.

    sending much love and light.

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  14. I am so deeply sorry for your tragic loss.

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  15. Sending you all of my love, I am so sorry for the sadness, I wish there were words to help ease the pain.

    much love

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  16. My love goes out to you both, and your Angel.

    http://www.mothersofangels.org/

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  17. You don't know me, and I don't know you. But I found your blog and my heart broke for you. The mother inside me wept. I prayed with all I had for comfort for your entire family.

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  18. I am saddened this morning beyond belief after reading this news. I felt as though I too had gotten to know your little Haloumi. I am so sorry for your loss.

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  19. I am so very sorry for your profoundly tragic loss. Wishing you peace and healing in your own time.
    From LFCA

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  20. Here from LFCA too.

    I am so sorry about the loss of your beautiful Zainab, your little Haloumi.

    This is no consolation, nor is it meant as such. But please know that you are not alone, that sadly there are too many of us on this terrible road. But also, that there is understanding and support, if you need them. I am so very sorry.

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  21. I am so sorry to hear of your loss.

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  22. I'm so terribly sorry. I wish it weren't so.

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  23. Here from LFCA. Sadly also a member of this 'club' that you have now joined. I am so very sorry that you lost your beautiful Haloumi. Please know that there are many of us here who walk with you on this long journey and that you will never be alone.

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  24. I'm so sorry. This is just awful. Please know that you are not alone.

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  25. Here from LFCA. I'm so so sorry for your loss.

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  26. Here from LFCA: I'm so very sorry for your loss. Please know I'm holding you all in my heart.

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  27. I'm so f#cking sorry. Words escape me. They can be so inadequate when dealing with the death of a much wanted child, your baby girl Zainab, your little Haloumi, your little future.

    Here from LFCA.

    Another lawyer (grad) in Qld. We have two daughters Janaki and Little My who both died in the second trimester.

    In tears as I read the post that should never have been.

    This just sucks. If there is anything I can do from Qld, even if it is just listening to you while you rage, please let me know. I remember in the early days after Janaki died, I shut off from the world and had no one. It was the darkest time of my life.

    I'm thinking of you both and your family during this horrid, painful tragedy. Wishing things were different.

    Please take care.
    S

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  28. I'm so very sorry. My heart aches for you.

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  29. I'm so sorry this has happened. :( I wish you peace and strength.

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  30. I am so sorry. I will keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  31. Sending our condolences from Boston...

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  32. Sorry can't begin to express it. My heart hurts for your family.

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  33. I am so very sorry for your terrible loss. You and your family are in my thoughts.

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  34. Here through LFCA. "Sorry" doesn't seem to adequately capture how I feel reading your news. But what other words are there? I'm just devastated for you all and wish there was something I could do other than to abide with you in your grief.

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  35. Came here through LFCA. I am so very, very sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to comprehend what you must be going through. I know there is nothing anyone can say to ease the hurt. Take care of yourself and each other. May you find peace and healing sooner rather than later.

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  36. Here from LFCA - I'm so sorry. I was induced at 34 weeks and 1 day and lost my baby girl an hour and a half later. My heart is breaking for you.

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  37. Here from LFCA ... I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I wish there was something to say ... I am thinking of you both and your precious Haloumi.

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  38. Here from the LFCA. The loss of your little Haloumi is so heartbreaking. Words cannot express how deeply sorry I am. Sending thoughts of peace, comfort and sympathy during this sad time to you and your family.

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  39. I am so, so sorry. Words are not enough.

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  40. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Haloumi. *hugs*

    Here from LFCA.

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  41. Came here from LFCA not to say anything but to offer the only thing I can right now: A Virtual HUG. But I know that won't be enough.

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  42. first time visitor from schroedinger's womb offering my condolences.

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  43. I am so very very sorry for your loss.

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  44. Here from LFCA. I'm so very sorry for your loss.

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  45. So so very sorry, sending all my love and support.

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  46. I'm so sorry. Please know I'm holding you and your family close to my heart and sending you lots of love and peace.
    *HUGS*

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  47. I came here via the Baybeasts blog. I don't know you and have never seen your blog, but I just wanted to say how sorry I am. I also saw that I'm on your blogroll, so I guess we are connected in a small way.

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  48. sending much love to you. there are no words. just love.

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  49. Oh God. I am just so, so sorry.

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  50. I am so deeply sorry. You and your family are in my thoughts.

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  51. I just came across your blog, and I wanted to say that I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine.

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