"Edited to Add"....

This started as a pregnancy blog when I fell pregnant in May 2009 after four years of finding a donor, doing all the counselling / paperwork / tests and trying.

And now, thanks to a 4WD which skidded onto our side of the road, killing our baby daughter at 34w and injuring me, my partner and two of my stepdaughters on 27 December 2009, it has turned into something else. We didn't want this something else, but apparently it is all we've got to go on with.

Friday, January 15, 2010


We're in the house, and it is heartbreakingly lovely because everything is so perfect except for the one small part which is missing.

The lovely friends & family have set up beds, kitchen, living room and filled the fridge - we are so so lucky in that respect.

I didn't quite realise what a big fat emotional wall I would hit when I got here. It means I'm getting antsy about some small things which really shouldn't matter, and pissing off Rima as a result. Hopefully I can mend that today and stop being such a grumpy bitch.

*EDITED TO ADD* But the good news I was hoping for is here - Dokkoon has given birth to a baby girl elephant!

I can't believe how HAIRY she is! But so amazing. And a bit surprised-looking. Welcome to the world, little one! What a scary confusing beautiful place this is.


  1. I love her! She's amazing, and yes- looks a little shell-shocked. It is so good that you have such wonderful support there.

  2. Isn't she beautiful! I'm really looking forward to a zoo visit, but not for a little while. Both her and I aren't quite ready for the public eye just yet.

    We're really lucky with support - we've even got beloved friends who have flown down from Sydney to help out. bloody amazing.

  3. I hope you're settling in well at home, dearest one. I'm just a short bus ride away if you need me.

    There's a video of the baby elephant! So wonderfully hairy. Consider turning the volume down - the journalist doesn't have much to say and I found him annoying.


  4. Wobbly baby elephant! Gorgeous!