"Edited to Add"....

This started as a pregnancy blog when I fell pregnant in May 2009 after four years of finding a donor, doing all the counselling / paperwork / tests and trying.

And now, thanks to a 4WD which skidded onto our side of the road, killing our baby daughter at 34w and injuring me, my partner and two of my stepdaughters on 27 December 2009, it has turned into something else. We didn't want this something else, but apparently it is all we've got to go on with.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Does my reproductive system think this is some competitive reality tv show where you can string out a result across four ad-breaks?

This is just getting a bit embarrassing. I have to have another blood test on friday - they still don't really know what is going on. This morning's result was 78 - higher than saturday's, but too low to be viable (especially given the bleeding). So the range of possibilities has narrowed to two. The nurse explained that either the embryo implanted for a while, but then (maybe saturday or sunday) decided not to stay, or it is still implanted, but somewhere it shouldn't. "What we want to see", she says, "is your levels go down to below 2 before you can really think about a next cycle". I've been given the warnings about ectopic pregnancies and when to head off to emergency, but have been told it would really be a bit early for anything like that just yet.

Maybe I was bracing for bad news, but I'm strangely encouraged by the thought that this little embie made such a valiant attempt.

Thanks dear ones for all the support in this waiting time. xxxxh
Posted by Hanen at 6:22 PM
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14 comments:

  1. nubreyFebruary 22, 2011 at 5:41 AM

    valiant indeed. care of yourself. sending love.

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  2. Bionic Baby MamaFebruary 22, 2011 at 5:41 AM

    ugh. i hope it drops quickly and without fuss. what an awful thing that is to have to hope for.

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  3. more BEANS pleaseFebruary 22, 2011 at 6:32 AM

    Oh I'm really thinking of you. Not sure whether you have checked out the following blog that I think someone else may have also mentioned on your last post-
    http://journeytowardsourbaby.wordpress.com/journey-so-far/. Go down to the last cycle these girls had (July/August 2010)- and you will see that they are very similar results to yours. Sending love.

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  4. AnonymousFebruary 22, 2011 at 6:54 AM

    Hugs. I was in that space twice, and it hurts AND is oddly encouraging. Such a weird place. Much <3 to you, Hanen.

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  5. claireFebruary 22, 2011 at 7:09 AM

    thinking of you, and hoping for a resolution soon...

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  6. PomegranateFebruary 22, 2011 at 7:21 AM

    thinking of you. unlike the nurse, i'm not prepared to write this off yet, but I do hope you have resolution either way, soon.

    ((hugs/love))

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  7. NFebruary 22, 2011 at 8:51 AM

    Oof. :( Given everything, I hope it drops quickly, and without the need for intervention. <3

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  8. JennFebruary 22, 2011 at 12:08 PM

    Oh, I'm so sorry for the bad news. I will also hope for a quick drop, but what a strange thing to be hoping for. Thinking of you! xx

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  9. SchroedingerFebruary 22, 2011 at 2:19 PM

    Damn. I am sorry for such discouraging/vague/ambivalent news. Hugs!

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  10. sarahFebruary 22, 2011 at 9:21 PM

    Sending you love, Hanen. xo

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  11. And so it goesFebruary 23, 2011 at 6:41 AM

    Ugg. frustrating to be in limbo. Sending lots of love.

    Thanks for the support over on my blog. I appreciated knowing I am not alone in the maddening IF journey.

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  12. LibberalFebruary 23, 2011 at 8:16 AM

    What crazy news. Hmm. I'm sorry too for all the ambiguity. Thinking of you.

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  13. AnonymousFebruary 23, 2011 at 4:59 PM

    So sorry about you being in limbo. :-(

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  14. HopeFebruary 24, 2011 at 7:32 PM

    I am so, so sorry you are going through this. I really hope things become clear, one way or another, very soon. (((Hugs)))

    (Here from the LFCA)

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