"Edited to Add"....

This started as a pregnancy blog when I fell pregnant in May 2009 after four years of finding a donor, doing all the counselling / paperwork / tests and trying.

And now, thanks to a 4WD which skidded onto our side of the road, killing our baby daughter at 34w and injuring me, my partner and two of my stepdaughters on 27 December 2009, it has turned into something else. We didn't want this something else, but apparently it is all we've got to go on with.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

One year on

And our baby rose bushes are in full bloom again. I know I sat there, our our porch, hiding behind the rose bushes and planning Z's memorial, but it feels very distant. In amongst the buzz of our first IVF cycle, I'm glad we had time to go and visit Z's little spot, and take her some of the new roses.

Everything feels very quiet now - waiting to see what will happen.


  1. I am holding you and your baby daughter in the light, as the Quakers say.

  2. Beautiful...very nice to have them for Z's spot.

  3. the roses are perfect.

    much love to you all.

  4. Delurking to say I'm sending my best thoughts and wishes your way. :)

  5. Those are beautiful little roses. Thinking of you and Z today and sending peace and love your way. xx

  6. Beautiful roses. Thinking of you and your sweet baby girl xo