"Edited to Add"....

This started as a pregnancy blog when I fell pregnant in May 2009 after four years of finding a donor, doing all the counselling / paperwork / tests and trying.

And now, thanks to a 4WD which skidded onto our side of the road, killing our baby daughter at 34w and injuring me, my partner and two of my stepdaughters on 27 December 2009, it has turned into something else. We didn't want this something else, but apparently it is all we've got to go on with.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Curiouser and curiouser

As promised...



This morning's number was 630! And although it was the same Nurse Realistic, she was much more upbeat this time. She's spoken with my doctor, and he didn't see any need for a further blood test, just a scan in a week's time.

When I started with my confused/excited, "So this might mean that it may actually be viable?", she did get all realistic on me, saying, "With all early pregnancies, but especially when your betas started low, we can't really confirm anything until the scan, but yes, congratulations. But if you do have any sharp pains or bleeding, don't ignore it, go straight to emergency."

So, somehow, my BFN of 15 Feb is starting to look a bit like a BF-might-possibly-conceivably-optimistically-be-P. It's now starting to feel like uncertainty of a much friendlier kind. Come on, uncertainty, welcome in.
Posted by Hanen at 6:20 PM
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26 comments:

  1. claireFebruary 27, 2011 at 8:31 PM

    WONDERFUL NEWS!!! CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!

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  2. briannaFebruary 27, 2011 at 8:41 PM

    This is so encouraging! Oh, I am crossing my fingers for you and El Prima. Stick, baby stick!

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  3. ArielFebruary 27, 2011 at 9:01 PM

    Fingers crossed!

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  4. Bionic Baby MamaFebruary 27, 2011 at 9:34 PM

    hoping and hoping for a good scan for you. this is one heck of a roller coaster, ain't it?

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  5. sarahFebruary 27, 2011 at 9:41 PM

    Wow wow wow wow wow, Hanen. Sending lots of good thoughts for a good scan, this little embie sure is a fighter, I love it. xo

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  6. NFebruary 27, 2011 at 9:42 PM

    Curious indeed. Fingers crossed for a good scan!

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  7. E. from Pot o' GoldFebruary 27, 2011 at 10:12 PM

    Wow, happy BFMBCOBP!!! Fingers crossed over here for you!

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  8. AnonymousFebruary 27, 2011 at 10:41 PM

    I hope, hope, hope this is the only drama in what will be a boring, normal pregnancy. Good luck staying sane between now and the scan!

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  9. Catherine WFebruary 27, 2011 at 11:35 PM

    Ooooo a spreadsheet! Lovely! ;)
    Hoping for you so very much. Go little one go xo

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  10. BethFebruary 28, 2011 at 12:33 AM

    well that's amazing. i've got everything crossed for you :)

    i love the tag 'persistent little bugger'!

    and i just wanted to say thank you for your comment on my site about my dream. it made me cry, in a good way. i like the way you interpret it.
    xxx

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  11. JeanetteFebruary 28, 2011 at 12:39 AM

    Come on little one, you've got Mamas all around the world rooting for you!

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  12. LoralouFebruary 28, 2011 at 1:59 AM

    Ooooooooohhhhhhhh!!!!!

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  13. nubreyFebruary 28, 2011 at 2:36 AM

    youuuuupi! i love possibly optimistic!
    xx

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  14. Kelly JeanFebruary 28, 2011 at 4:23 AM

    Sticky sticky baby vibes!!!!!!

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  15. AnonymousFebruary 28, 2011 at 4:58 AM

    Wow. That's definitely headed in the right direction. Sending huge hope!

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  16. JennFebruary 28, 2011 at 5:17 AM

    Ah! I hope this one decides it's found a lovely, comfy spot and will stick around for the long haul. Thinking of you and hoping the days until your scan tick away quickly. xx

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  17. SchroedingerFebruary 28, 2011 at 5:31 AM

    Ow wow, what a ride this has been! I am hanging on with love & hope!

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  18. JenniFebruary 28, 2011 at 6:33 AM

    stick stick stick! :) xo

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  19. LittleWandererFebruary 28, 2011 at 7:37 AM

    ooo good luck!! xx

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  20. PomegranateFebruary 28, 2011 at 7:52 AM

    congratulations!

    so, i know it's never for sure and i understand your reluctance to give in to optimism, but it sure looks like pregnant to me.

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  21. LibberalFebruary 28, 2011 at 8:00 AM

    OMG Congratulations!!!! I had been stalking your blog all day yesterday for news. It's looking more real every beta! Now it just needs to stick around! Good luck! XO

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  22. Mama1Mama2February 28, 2011 at 8:49 AM

    Congratulations!!! I am praying for a good scan! Stick bean stick!

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  23. TuiFebruary 28, 2011 at 11:32 AM

    That is fantastic news - sending you all the hope I can for an equally fantastic scan! This reminds me very much of where we were nearly nine months ago, low betas, eventually starting to rise, nurses telling us not to hope that it was either ectopic or not viable and that it was just a matter of time - such a confusing whirlwind of emotions but there's nothing wrong with letting hope in and I'm hoping with all I've got for you!

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  24. RDRFebruary 28, 2011 at 1:06 PM

    Sending you loads of positive energy from my desk! Everything crossed for you!

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  25. *February 28, 2011 at 6:02 PM

    Hang in there. Waiting and waiting and waiting...Hoping.

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  26. Ya ChunFebruary 28, 2011 at 8:44 PM

    So exciting and nerve-wracking!

    Fingers crossed!

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